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<sub>Every time I pick up pencil to draw, I remember all the incomplete drawings I need to finish for other people, plus my eternal frustration on designing my new fursona because she just WONT GET OUT OF MY HEAD ALREADY,

and I simply end up putting the pencil back where it was. :I

Adding all the stress of my thesis film as well, which makes art my prison instead of my escape, and I just end up too sad to draw. I've lost a lot of confidence in my art too. I don't like anything I draw these days...

But despite all that, I will keep trying. Just wanted to take this out of my chest somewhere.

Any tips?</sub>

<sub>Hi guys! 

I've never done this before, but I wanted to do a kiriban at 10,000 pageviews!

Basically, all you need to do is a grab a screenshot of my 10,000th pageview (with your account name logged in and displayed), and you'll get to request a drawing of your choice from me, with a few exceptions.</sub> 
This will be fun, I can't wait!

And it's only been like 4 years! Hehehe. 

Hey, I'm really sorry I've been gone for so long. It's not really an apology to my watchers (I would be SUPER surprised if anyone actually read this anyway. I've been gone for years!), but it's more of an apology to myself after being so frustrated that I didn't give my art a priority in my life. Sure, I'm in an art school and I'm doing animation and all that. Heck, I'm already in my thesis film, but I stopped drawing for myself a long time ago. I just drew for assignments or gifts and that's it. Drawing for myself was the hardest thing for me. And this year I decided to challenge that, because if I start to dislike art, well, what kind of artist would I be? 

So this year's main resolution, beyond losing a bit of weight or finally starting yoga to ease my ever-growing shoulder pain, is to ACTUALLY fall in love with art again. I miss that feeling of actually wanting to get home to draw instead of playing Pokemon or some other video game. (Pokemon Sun is still the shit, though.)

In conclusion, if you, fellow art student, ever start to feel like that, just pick up a pencil or a tablet pen and draw whatever comes to mind. I'm not at that stage yet where I'm proud of what I drew, but at least I'm trying to draw everyday. And that's a start. 

BY THE WAY, I started an Instagram account a few days ago and I've posted some recent stuff, so please give it a look and follow me if you want! 
You can look for me by searching paulamarilo. 

Big things are coming!
(hopefully)

<sub>Wow, its been six months since I was active here. Just wow.
I wanna apologize, mainly because I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH AAAGGGHHH
I miss the trades, the comments, the notes, everything! I promise I'l behave this time, and not run off like the little brat I act like sometimes, hahaha.

I know many of you arent that interested in my real life, so I wont bore you this time, I promise. I'll just say that SCAD was amazing and my first senior semester treated me pretty well. My Holidays were lovely too.

WHAT DID SANTA BRING YOU GUYS?? I got my laptop, yay~  

Before I sign off, I wanna apologize to everyone who has left me a comment of question and I still havent answered. My long vacation prevented me from answering quickly and it's been so  long that now I just feel embarrassed. So if you still wanna ask me something again, feel free. Ill answer quickly this time, hahaha.

Well, I guess that's it. Ill spend the next few days drawing my new characters in epic poses and stuff. So...see you around, guys!

p.p.s. Does anyone here play Monster Hunter Tri? IM STILL ADDICTED TO THAT GAME, MAN. I wanna find some online buddies :3</sub>